
I have a 4 month old. A healthy, thriving 4 month old. Although my birth experience was nothing I expected it to be, and down right hard and terrifying, I have a healthy, beautiful child. I say that Carter's birth was terrifying because of his dropping heart rate and my blood pressure not cooperating appropriately. I had gone through 9 months of developing this precious child in my body and the thought that I could have lost him before I even met him is just that, terrifying. I often find myself complaining about my c-section. That is was hard and painful and emotional, but now that I think about it I am thankful. I am thankful that the Lord gave my doctor the wisdom to know when Carter needed to come out and that a vaginal delivery was no longer a safe option for me. I am thankful that there is even a procedure like this to deliver a child that is in trouble. There are also a few things that I went through in my pregnancy that I am thankful about...so Lord here is my list of thankyou's since you haven't heard all of them yet...Lord, I want you to know that I am thankful for the blessings you have given me. I don't want to take them for granted, and I am thankful that you have made me realize that the hardships I went through, are in fact a blessing.
Thank you for allowing us to get pregnant and to bring a child in this world.
Thank you for my morning sickness because that soon revealed a healthy baby
Thank you for a low lying placenta, because that moved me to pray continually that it would be moved within 10 weeks, and You did it Lord. You answered my prayer and you moved it. Only You.
Thank you for a full term pregnancy.
Thank you for Dr. Maddox.
Thank you for a procedure that got my child out quickly when he was in trouble.
Thank you that even though my placenta was separating You still kept both Carter and I safe even though I lost a good amount of blood.
Thank you that even though I had a rough first month as a new mother, I made it and learned a lot along the way.
Thank you for your provisions and allowing me to stay at home and raise Carter.
Thank you for an absolutely AMAZING husband. He is a wonderful Daddy.
Thank you that even though Carter got Pertussis he did not have to be hospitalized and he was able to recover at home. Thank you for being with us during this scary sickness. We couldn't have done it by ourselves.
Thank you for Your overwhelming love and sending Your Son to die for our sins. On top of that you choose to give us blessings here on earth, and for that I am also thankful.
There are several blogs that I follow of parents going through a heart breaking experience of losing their babies, and the whole time they are praising the Lord. I felt very convicted that they are praising the Lord while going through probably THE hardest thing in their lives but I, having been blessed with a healthy child, wasn't giving HIM near as much praise. These people are STRONG and I admire them for how they choose to handle their circumstances. I pray that the Lord will give them strength.
So I praise You Lord. I will always praise You. You are an amazing creator abounding in Love far beyond my imagination and the fact that You decided to bless Chad and I in the way that you have astonishes me because we do not deserve it. Your Grace and Mercy are like none I've ever known before. Thank you. I am sorry that this thank you came 4 months later than it should have and I am sorry for the bitterness towards my birth experience; it was nothing short of a miracle. Thank you and You deserve all the Praise.