That's right. I'm admitting it! For the longest time Kerri has claimed that I am a germ-a-phobe, and I have denied it up and down and just said that I am very hygenic. Now that I have had Carter I have realized that I am a full blown germ-a-phobe. I mean, I don't think it's an extreme case, but I definitely have a big problem with potential of germs being on me and my baby (and Chad).
Now that I think about it I have 5 bottles of Germ-x in the house. One for each diaper bag, one for my purse, and two for the house. I use it after I go in a store, when I leave Church, when I pump gas, and various other times when I feel as if I have touched something 'germy'.
Now that Carter is about 4 months old and out and about in public, I find myself cringing at the sight of people I don't know touching my child. Usually I'm fine if I know you and you touch him because I am aware of whether you are sick or not. Also, if you know me then you know that Carter has had the Whooping Cough and any other type of respiratory illness he gets right now can make the cough worse....so most are kind to stay away if they are sick- thanks :)
But anyways, these folks I don't know at church that grab Carter's little fist (which he puts in his mouth) and give it a shake or SQUEEZE HIS CHEEKS with their hand are causing me to have a heart attack on the inside.
Seriously, I am trying not to freak out, and in my head I am reciting over and over that he needs to be exposed to things so that he can have more immunities, so I really am trying. I mean I can't keep him in the house all the time because the few times we did get out I'm sure he would come down with something!
I really do think I am at my worse ever since Carter caught the Whooping Cough.
Also, it's funny because it's like my ears are now in tune to any cough I hear at any store and when I hear it I RUN in the opposite direction. Trust me, if you had been what we have been through with this cough, then you would too. You're probably thinking...oh it's just a little cough...well it's not just a little cough when your baby turns blue from lack of oxygen while he is trying to swallow the thick mucus that he has just coughed up. Then once he finally does take a breath, he screams bloody murder because it scared him so badly. I have to remain calm to calm him down (which usually works), but the whole process is just stressful and scary. He is doing much much better, but still has a pretty bad cough at night. - ok so that was all just a little side note- sorry :)
Anyways, I am currently a germ-a-phobe and I admit it. I feel as if it might get better as the summer draws closer, but as of right now I am STRESSED! Anyone else been like this with their first? Hopefully it will get better with the next kid.
Oh, and I am sending a bottle of germ-x with Chad to work tomorrow. Money is DIRTY. And the strangers that come and sit at his desk and use his pens I'm sure aren't much cleaner :)
I'm trying, I promise :)
I'm not joking.
8 years ago


